Thursday, February 11, 2010

Il pleut

It's been raining a lot lately. Tuesday brought light hail, a downpour of rain, and even a couple of legit lightning/thunder combos!

AND, to top it all off, a spectacular rainbow.

Twitpic courtesy of my buddy Tyler (twitter: tylermiller5)

A lot of people in SoCal hate the rain, but not I. It's generally cold (which I love), it feels like we have seasons (which I love), and it cleans up the air to create some beautiful views (which I love).

Take, for example, this picture my friend Steve twitpic-ed from Downtown LA

(twitter: stevenmw8)

There's just something about the rain... It gets me all think-y and pensive. I even sat down at one point and wrote a poem about it the other day! Haha. Here it is. It's really more just freeflowing thinking on paper:

Il Pleut

What is this rain bringing?
Is it just water for our dry soil?
Hydrating nourishment for the California plant life?

No

It's bringing flooding
It's bringing to the surface how weak Socal's drainage system is
I mean, the rain isn't THAT bad.
It's like Japan- looking so put together and beautiful;
yet scratch the surface just a tad and you see the
emptiness
hopelessness
death
It's causing mudslides- threatening the poor homes of the foothills... AGAIN!
First the fires, now this... [eeyore voice]
Bet your $4-mill homes aren't feeling so secure now, eh?
It's uncovering the insecurity and inadequacy Socal drivers hide by overcompensating with aggressive/fast driving: we cannot drive in rain
Random traffic jams and accidents- that's what it's bringing
Pitter patter. Slick slick. Screech screech. CRASH!
Pitter patter. Swerve swerve. "**** you!" HONK!

What is this rain bringing?
Is it just hazards to scare us all?
A reason to not go out for fear of wetness, traffic, injury?

No

It's bringing a cleansing of our smog-browned sky
It's bringing a pure bright blanket of snow to our mountains
It's bringing an LA rarity- quality time
People choosing not to go out and do, do, do,
But instead staying in with fam and friends to BE
Time for hot cocoa and snuggies and chick-flicks and cuddling
Coats, rain jackets, rubber boots and parapluies
Emerge from closets where they've been collecting dust
It's bringing a coat of authenticity to people's countenances
After nine months hiding behind makeup and plastered smiles
After dressing to impress and snooting to put others down
The rain's misery brings together company
Birds of a feather, unable to look cute in soaked hoods and bold-colored ponchos,
now unafraid to smile at a social inferior, frown frankly for wet discomfort,
make eye contact with strangers (GASP) to commiserate with a chuckle,
perhaps even share a sentence or two, as they share a kind awning or benevolent umbrella
"...ella, ella, ey, ey..."
Ah, the beauty of a song shared by people cleverly referencing the lyrics
at every mention of this oft-forgotten protective friend
It's bringing an appreciation for the sun- normally taken completely for granted
It's bringing hope for a sunny tomorrow (though that "tomorrow" might not come until the weekend)
And just as this "tomorrow" begins to break through the gray,
The rain will bring a divine hope-
A celestial Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat
"When I bring clouds over the earth and the bow is seen in the clouds,
I will remember My covenant that is between Me and you and every living creature..."
"The sun'll come out tomorrow!" It's coming
A new day. A new season. A clean slate.
After the discomfort and despair of wetness and the sunless sky,
will come a cleaner, brighter January
Socal's true, natural beauty on display for all to see

What is this rain bringing?
A recognition that there's Something much bigger
Something that can cause rain, snow, death, life
With just one Word

"Let there be rain"
et il plut
Tiens- il pleut. =)

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

A SWEET End to 2009

Winter Conference is always a highlight. The fellowship is great, the speakers are almost always convicting, challenging and exciting, the worship is energetic and passionate,
and all the seminars and activities leave no room for lukewarmness or apathy. And this year, it was "extra super special" (Drop Dead Gorgous quote) for me because I got to serve on the planning team (see November 30 and December 18 posts) and was chosen to be the Emcee. Having these two roles made Winter Conference an ENTIRELY new experience for me, as I spent all day, every day, basically straight through from 730am to 11pm, in the ballroom either preparing for meetings, running meetings, or meeting with the planning team to tweak our meetings. So I had little to no interaction with my students, and it was definitely sad that I didn't get to catch up with many of my staff and intern friends due to my near complete lack of free time, but I wouldn't trade that experience for anything! It was SO rewarding to be on that side of Conference, and to watch God show up in marvelous ways to take over the main sessions.

Some pictures, and thoughts, to wrap up those four amazing days...

The first night of emceeing was probably the scariest. There was a LOT of info to go over, and it was my chance to build rapport with the students so that they would trust me to guide them through the week.

Well, I really couldn't have asked for a better night. My intro went really well, the students really got to understand what the conference was about, there was a GREAT and thought-provoking skit encouraging participants to bring hearts that are ready to encounter God,


the worship was joyful, and the speaker, James White, a pastor from North Carolina, spoke dynamically and passionately about the love of God to start off Conference.
Praise God that He completely took over after a lackluster, technical-difficulties-filled rehearsal, to give us a phenomenal first night.

Speaking of skits, this year's Winter Conference featured many more creative elements than in recent years. There was the first night's skit, then a skit about a prisoner who does not want freedom, which set the tone for the speaker who would talk about the scary parts of being "All In" for God,

a reader's theater piece about students contemplating going on missions, a cool, modified version of the "cardboard testimonies"(See an example of the standard ones here)

an AMAZING hiphop dance choreographed to show the beauty of the contagiousness of the Spirit-filled life,which set everyone up really well to excitedly go out into the city of San Diego and share Christ,

and a painting of Jesus and the empty tomb, done on plexiglass by two artists on stage, set to meditative music.

This one was particularly special, because the speaker had JUST talked about how we are each God's masterpiece, and had compared God's relationship with us to that of a painter with his painting. And during the whole performance, you couldn't tell what the painting was of, until they hit the very last stroke and went off stage, when many people's jaws dropped at the realization of what the painting was.

There were also cool testimonies.
On the first night, to start things off, JJ, a student from Chico State, shared his story of how God led him to go on a Winter Conference and how he accepted Christ there. It was such an authentic, powerful testimony!

On the second morning, we were highlighting ESM- Ethnic Student Ministries. These are CCC's branches that reach out to specific cultural groups, because we recognize that people of different cultures can often have different spiritual barriers and different styles of communication. Richard, from Long Beach State, shared how God called him to start a ministry for Latinos (Destino) on his campus. Many students felt encouraged and challenged to go start ESMs on their own campus, as God began breaking their hearts for specific cultural groups.

A man from Uganda, who was saved through being a Compassion, Intl-sponsored child gave his testimony of how an American girl "chose to live simply so that [he] could simply live" was heart-wrenching yet inspiring!

Leyla, the only staff person in the Dominican Republic, shared her story of how blessed she and her ministry were by the few students that gave up their summer last year to go on the very first Summer Project there.

Ben (ASU) and KC (Chico) shared their testimonies of how going on a stateside (US) Summer Project changed their lives.


Day 3 was what we call our "Day of Faith". After the morning session, the students all went out into different parts of San Diego to go share Christ with people they ran into- at the beach, at malls, at parks, etc. "Day of Faith" is often a student's first time doing evangelism, and so it's a really exciting (and sometimes scary) day for everyone. At the end of the day, we had students come up on stage and share cool stories from the day.

Some were stories about people praying to receive Christ, some were stories about a cool way God led them to talk to a certain person, and some were just about how students overcame lifelong fears and barriers to finally step out in faith and talk to people about God- all were encouraging, beautiful stories of God's awesome work!

Day 4 was New Year's Eve. After a fantastic morning session talk by Carrie Walker (a National Director for Campus Crusade),

students broke out into seminars that put a practical twist on the things they had been learning.

Some examples of seminars were ones on apologetics, sexual sin, being a spiritual leader, and breaking through barriers in sharing Christ with people of specific cultures (Muslim, Greek, Gay/Lesbian, etc). At night, Jamey Pappas (Campus Director at Cal Poly SLO)

gave a challenging talk about the Treasure in the field, and going "All In" for it. There was also a one-man skit (a REALLY cool one), done by Mike Berk (one of our Regional Directors) that was a modern-day version of the story of the man who sold everything he had for the treasure in the field.

At the end of Jamey's talk, there was a sweet opportunity for people to indicate their decisions to go "All In" for God by cracking glow sticks

and then going over to the walls of the ballroom to sign different posters indicating specific "All In" decisions like "I commit to reaching a specific people group on my campus" or "I commit to applying for a Summer Project this year".


It was a really cool sight, getting to look out over the room from on-stage and seeing all the glowsticks raised high. Hundreds of students made powerful, life-changing decisions through the Conference that night. Praise God!
After the meeting, the students split off into their last of three "Campus Connection Times" when they got to meet with students from their own campus to talk about what God's been doing in their lives through the week. This was the only Connection time I got to go to but it was so encouraging to hear about everything God was doing in the hearts of my Trojans!
Then it was PARTY time!

The annual New Year's Eve dance party went until the countdown, and from midnight til about 1:15, we welcomed in the new year with worship and prayer.
What a sweet way to end 2009 and start 2010!

There were also elements outside of the main ballroom like the coffee house where students could hang out, have open mic sessions, play games, etc.

But, unfortunately, I can't say too much about them because I didn't really experience them. But I hear they were GREAT! :)

I hope that gave you a glimpse of how awesome those four days were, and more importantly, how God showed up to rock the house and change the lives of students from around the region. It was absolutely exhausting but I couldn't have been more excited about the way things turned out. He is so good and I just want to thank you all for praying for the conference, supporting me so I could be part of something like this, and even the encouraging little texts, facebook wallposts, and notes you sent me as I emceed.

End of 2009- awesome.
Let's experience even more of God in 2010! Yes? Cool!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

The end of 2009 was absolutely incredible.
I got to spend the last 5 days of the year in San Diego with 700 students from the region (CA, AZ, HI), at the 2009 Winter Conference. It was phenomenal. I'll have to devote a different entry to it- because sooooo much happened. But I just wanted to say thank you SO much for all your prayers for it- we needed it, and it worked.

I'm so excited about 2010! There's so much coming up and once I get to talk about some of the highlights in my prayer letter, I'll write a post about it.

I'm sorry this is such a tease of a post. But I wanted to at least say something to start off the year.

So with that, here's to a blessed 2010!

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Late Night Thinking Spree

It's past 2 in the morning, and I'm feeling wide awake. There's so much going on in my head!

Tonight, I received a folder full of creative notes/cards that my Project students from this summer

made for me! Apparently, Kylan organized it and got as many of our teammates as possible to send in cards and notes of gratitude for Heather and me for leading their Project. Matt Pfaff collected them and gave them to me tonight and every note was just SO encouraging and SOOOO humbling! The way God uses us without our knowing it is kind of unfathomably awesome... isn't it?? (check out my blog from Project here to read stories from Project/meet the team)

Then as I've been bumming on facebook, I've come across pictures of people who were in my life back in my high school/skating days. It's really weird to think about who I was back then, but it's also a fantastic reminder of the work God has done in my life to redeem and save me. It definitely hurts thinking about how I used to live my life, and it hurts even more thinking about the people I knew back then who are still living without the joy and hope I've come to know... but I praise God for His wondrous work of pursuing my heart til He had it, and for the transforming healing He's brought to it.

As I then continued bumming on facebook, I came to this completely separate realization:
I am SO excited about next summer! As far as I can tell, it seems that the Lord is leading me to join full-time staff with CCC, and that means that as long as I get accepted and God doesn't change my path, I'm spending next summer at Rollins College in Orlando, FL, getting trained! I hear it's a pretty phenom experience those 5 weeks. I mean, between getting the frosh dorm/dining hall experience with new staff from around the country, taking sweet seminary classes, and (hopefully) growing close to new people and even closer to the Lord, I'm sure it's gonna be GREAT. ON TOP OF THAT, it's a hop, skip and a jump away from DisneyWorld!
So this

will be happening a lot more! :)

I'd talk about how excited I am about the specific location I feel called to serve at next year as well (especially since I've been googling, google imaging, google maping, and even craigslisting the place this last hour or so), but I haven't even mentioned this stuff in any of my prayer letters yet so this seems an inappropriate way to announce it to my team of ministry partners :)
But that'll all come soon.

I should try to go to bed... But really, I've been soaking in the joy of the encouragement from reading the notes from my Project kids, reflecting on my past and praising God for His saving work as I consider my present, and getting excited about what He has for me next- how can you possibly expect me to be sleepy?? :)

(Having said this, I will probably fall asleep within minutes...seconds?... of when I lay may head down on my pillow. I have QUITE the gift of falling asleep)

Friday, December 18, 2009

Winter "Break"

So we ended our campus semester on Tuesday, December 8. But I've certainly not been "done". Between wrapping up with discipleship guys, taking care of support stuff, doing emcee training for winter conference, and helping prepare a few different aspects of the conference (especially this hip hop dance we're having), it's been pretty busy.

Speaking of Winter Conference, SO EXCITED!!!
I canNOT believe that we (staff) are showing up to San Diego in 9 days and the students show up the day after! Talk about time flying... I'm so beyond excited and honored and nervous and every other emotion about being the emcee too! AAAH! I really just pray that the Lord would use me on stage to bring spiritual focus and direction to the Conference, and that my guiding and transitioning and such would bring the focus onto Him- not to me, not to the speakers, but to HIM.

Also this hiphop dance is gonna be kind of awesome. It's about community, and how when one lives his life all out for Christ, it can be contagious to those around him, when he invites them to live the full-on Spirit-filled life. Thanks to my friend Kristy Pyke and my little bro Jonathan Langley for choreographing! :)

I hope you are all having a great Christmas season, and that, whether you're in a happy and easy season of life, or going through a storm/desert, you are experiencing the inexplicable joy and peace we have because the Creator of the universe willingly became a poor baby boy, born in a stable 2000 years ago (well, He did a ton more than that to bring us that joy and peace, but it all started with the birth).

Monday, November 30, 2009

Seen Around Cru This Fall...

A Photo Entry...
As we're wrapping up the semester (we're in the last week of classes for 2009), I thought I'd post some pictures taken from around Cru happenings.

Students catching up with each other and meeting new students at the Cru Welcome BBQ, Sunday, August 23




Our first weekly meeting on Wednesday, August 26.
Meeting people...

Listening to the speaker...

This year's emcee, Teddy, with guest co-emcee, Heather


My good friend Emily Gustafson (Senior) having discipleship with Susan-Marie (Sophomore). Caught them in action at Coffee Bean on campus :)


The Cru group at Moorpark College, where we have been trying to help establish a strong movement- Matt Swaney and I have been working there this semester, and next semester it'll be Heather and myself


Greg's fiancee, Amanda, visited us on a Wednesday night for weekly meeting


Two of our Greek Life meetings from this semester
Our September meeting...

Our October meeting...


Winter Conference planning weekend with the team (Bob and Jill Fuhs- LA City Focus Directors, Jenny Dorazio- 2nd yr Intern @ ASU, Lis Engen- Staff @ SDSU, Amanda Gagnon- Staff @ UCLA, and myself) minus Amanda in October




Winter Conference planning days with the whole team in November

Having Dinner at the PCH Grill in Disney's Paradise Pier Hotel to celebrate finishing planning!



Heather and myself with our Cross '09 visitors from the University of Illinois- Peter Lichtenberger (1st yr Intern) and Josh and Allie Johnson (Staff)- who helped us launch a Destino movement at Los Angeles City College. Photo taken inside Los Angeles' beautiful Union Station


Staff Conference
Our first day meeting, outdoors in the beautiful SoCal November weather

In the breakfast hall- it's so fun seeing the whole Pacific Southwest Region Staff Family, and getting to hear about what God is doing all over CA, AZ, HI, and Las Vegas! And together getting trained more deeply on evangelism and other ministry tools


So there you have it! I don't always have my camera on me, but I hope you enjoyed looking at some shots of cool things going on in CCC Life :)

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

SO MUCH CRAZINESS!

So here I am, sitting in the lobby of the Doubletree Hotel in Orange, unwinding for a few minutes. See, we just finished day 2 of Winter Conference planning, but let me tell you- it's been a lot more than that going on lately...

Two weeks ago, I had to say "see you in December" to all the guys I do discipleship with. Last week was what's called Cross '09. All campus staff in the US crossed cultures to do ministry. Here in LA, we focused on starting Destino movements (the branch of Cru focused on reaching Latino students). It was FANTASTIC! I was assigned to Los Angeles City College with Heather, Paul, and Trina from our campus team, Bob and Jill Fuhs who are on our regional team, 5 staff from Korean CCC, Peter the intern from Illinois, and Josh and Allie Johnson, also from Illinois. We spent those days going non-stop initiating conversations with Latino students, sharing the Gospel with them when needed, but also trying to find potential student leaders for a Destino group at LACC. We had so many awesome, eye-opening conversations with Latino students who really made us come face-to-face with the realities of their poverty, their lack of education, the frustration they feel with the lack of motivation their peers have, etc. So many of them got to hear the truth about Christ for the first time, and we definitely got in touch with some students who are interested in helping us out with starting Destino. Praise God!

But it was an absolutely draining week. Throw in an urban hike through downtown, Matt Swaney's final weekly meeting, and a day of staff/shepherd team meetings, and you get a draining week.

I got a little bit of time to recover over the weekend, and then yesterday morning at 10, it was time to check in to the Doubletree for the next 7 days! Yesterday and today, allllll day, I've been working in our team of 6 staff/interns to plan our Winter Conference! Again, it's SUCH a privilege and honor to get to work on this team to plan such a big conference that historically has been used by the Lord repeatedly to change lives. But it's been intense. Planning from 10-10 fries your brain good.

So that brings me to now. We finished all our planning for all the meetings- we just need to meet tomorrow morning for about an hour and a half to finalize a couple of details. But then half an hour later, check-in starts for our regional staff conference where staff from the entire region (Hawaii, California, Arizona, and Las Vegas) gets together for encouragement and trainig. Intern lunch at 12, meetings start at 2pm, and the conference goes until Friday noon-ish. Then it's time to prep for ~230 students to show up for our Crossroads Conference, where students will be trained on how to make decisions to glorify God as they prepare for graduation- so that they will live missionally no matter what career path they choose to take. That'll go until Sunday.

CRAZY! Fortunately, we get next week off (we'd get most of it off anyway because of Thanksgiving) to regroup before going into our final week on campus for 2009.

But it's all been so good! God's been so good to us in helping us plan the Conference, Cross '09 was so encouraging, and we're excited to have the biggest number of students registered for Crossroads ever. But please do be praying!